Sunday, February 19, 2006

A little nervous about my future

I was just up listening to some music and I was thinking about my "career". I'm a little nervous about my future. I mean, I am currently not going to school, I work part-time as a PC tech.. the pay is good but I don't get that much work, so my paycheck isn't huge at the end of the week...all I really have is my music. It gets me angry seeing people on like American Idol or some other reality show trying to be pop superstars through a show. I think that's the easy way out...to sing music that is already written to judges..that's cake. I don't think I'd be able to live with myself if I went that route. Even though I know I am taking the harder route by writing my own stuff and just praying to whatever god that is up there that people will like it... because this literally is it for me... I have nothing else but this hope that my music becomes something... I know my family thinks that I am a dissapointment and I feel like I am a burden sometimes because I am not as successful as my brothers are... but I just can't do well in school... as hard as I try, I can't do it...

I'm even more nervous now because I need to come up with money that I literally don't have... I am going to come up with the money to pay for 1 song to be produced, but then I have to pray that my producer can show that song to the right person who will want to help finance the rest of my project... when I talked to him this past week, he told me that his partners don't want to finance another reggaeton artist because... and I quote... "Nah man... Daddy Yankee got dat shit locked down." That is what is driving me right now.. to prove to those people who think that reggaeton should be one way wrong. I am going to open their eyes back to what music should be. It should be a catchy melody, story, and also someone who can tell it well. I am not going to make mindless music like other reggaeton artists out there. I am really going to surprise you all with my writing and my arrangement. Hopefully the rest of the world will see my talent and help me become something. Then we'll see what my family thinks of me...

Thanks for reading...

-B

2 comments:

Lui said...

hey well since u MUST'VE taken the option to add a comment out of your blog, I'll stalk you here. Anyway, this is how I always think. What's meant for you, will happen. Remember that. If it wasn't meant to be yours, than its easier to live with that. God has a plan I think, and sometimes we may want to deter from it, but it'll always work out in the end. Either way, good luck with the music aspirations. You have more talents than you think. And there are endless opportunities in the world. You'll see.

Anonymous said...

Supwise! I just want to say dont worry cutie. I have much faith all in your lie will turn out fine. You have a gift that God gave you and he wants you to use it. Everyone else will damn the day they didnt believe in you and regret it. Trust me on this and that will be your sweet reward I have 100% faith in you just push yourself as your doing and you will suceed:) Just remember who always believed in you. But most importantly dont give up believe in yourself and screw the rest!!! :D
tu babylinda